Slow Twitch
She said, "my fiance pointed out as Damien left in his Escalade, 'hey that weird kid you were all making fun of just left in an Escalade' and I thought 'dang! guess he did okay for himself! I couldn't afford that!'" and I felt funky inside. Is that really what people do? Size others up by which possessions they own? If you will accept me for my escalade, I want nothing to do with the thing you call friendship.
You are Jindra's pride. I was thinking of some set of words to give to her as a gift, some thing that would help her to carry through. But then I thought, what she needs she already has. Just don't give your goals to the trolls.
I thought about why I'm not going with her and my mind drifted toward the subject of compassion. I think that she and Libby and Dad are the right ones to uphold the line because for them compassion is a tool to be wielded, and with great skill. It is an instrument in their arsenal, one of many, that works as a part of a greater whole. For me it would be a liability, called upon too readily and with misguided intention. This is not something that I grieve because I know that I'll find my calling elsewhere.
Tonight my legs burned as I watched pavement become a blurry black streak beneath them, and I thought about a million different lives that I could right now be leading. I felt the muscles in the tops of my quads strain as I amped toward the end of the run with sprint intervals. You are only incapable of doing that which you believe you are incapable of doing.
You are Jindra's pride. I was thinking of some set of words to give to her as a gift, some thing that would help her to carry through. But then I thought, what she needs she already has. Just don't give your goals to the trolls.
I thought about why I'm not going with her and my mind drifted toward the subject of compassion. I think that she and Libby and Dad are the right ones to uphold the line because for them compassion is a tool to be wielded, and with great skill. It is an instrument in their arsenal, one of many, that works as a part of a greater whole. For me it would be a liability, called upon too readily and with misguided intention. This is not something that I grieve because I know that I'll find my calling elsewhere.
Tonight my legs burned as I watched pavement become a blurry black streak beneath them, and I thought about a million different lives that I could right now be leading. I felt the muscles in the tops of my quads strain as I amped toward the end of the run with sprint intervals. You are only incapable of doing that which you believe you are incapable of doing.
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