Jumped Into A River

nothing to fear nothing to hide
he says,
we can complete this tonight
then retreats to his dark corner
we are

hot and sweating
there is a stink in the air
will stayed to help me i cannot stop staring at his face.
transfixed.

we are laughing over papers,
to keep from crying,
there are these moments of gut-wrenching tedium.
he is only there because i am an hour beyond quitting time and no reprieve in sight.

the first will comes back,
you ever hate someone so much you just naturally griy your teeth when they're around
it's 4:50
and i just up and leave
and will lights a smoke
and

come on if you can,
but you never will.