For My Homie.
You're never far from grace.
It was just like this, only two years ago. Just like this and I was a month away from getting the flu really bad, and we would stay up til midnight anyway looking for the magic that I am still determined to believe in. You can't describe it to anyone, because who would believe you anyway? And there is no joy in the describing, or in the listening to. One must only experience it. Sometimes it catches me off guard and I remember so much, and I smile, I smile. For everything that might have been but won't be. That future is encased in amber, I'm sure of it. Hand on heart, eyes closed, happy. Full up with it. We are both invincible.
It was just like this, only two years ago. Just like this and I was a month away from getting the flu really bad, and we would stay up til midnight anyway looking for the magic that I am still determined to believe in. You can't describe it to anyone, because who would believe you anyway? And there is no joy in the describing, or in the listening to. One must only experience it. Sometimes it catches me off guard and I remember so much, and I smile, I smile. For everything that might have been but won't be. That future is encased in amber, I'm sure of it. Hand on heart, eyes closed, happy. Full up with it. We are both invincible.
2 Comments:
At 11:12 PM,
bava said…
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your clan of shanxes. Hope you guys have an awesome, heart-warming, turkey-slaughtering day. :)
Give my best to your family.
At 9:10 AM,
Daniel said…
I am FEELIN' ya. I was just thinking about the same subject (my own crazy version) and I would describe my mood as: sad. I mourn for what could have been but never will. Still. But I totally get what you're saying about the encased in amber thing. Like I said...feelin' ya. And we really don't know what things will be like when we're all dead. i think the love that is in our hearts that can't be shared perfectly and fully here, can and will be then. we do our best while we're clunking around here, but that feeling you have of so much love and possibility cooped up in your heart and mind, that's because it is cooped up...for now.
i hope you're doing good, loving life. talk to ya later.
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