While The Sea Is Calm

"When does life get easier," he asked me. A voice not my own made the answer for me, because it's a question that has been on my mind longer than my ability to remember when it wasn't. "There is no guarantee that it does. But in my experience, keeping God in your heart beyond just Sunday morning helps you to not feel so alone."

I wish I could hold onto that faith even into the darkness when my spirit is whisper-thin and it feels like my life is pointless. Because the promise is that we aren't alone. My problems are not as bad as what others have had to endure, and do endure.

I think that God puts us on a path that will allow us to do His work best. I just wish I understood mine. And I wish it involved full-time Fire or EMS or both. Shawn was directionless and started at the bottom, as a basic, and he had two children. I wonder how long his applications sat on a desk somewhere. One foot in front of the other. If others were able to do it, so are you.