My List Revisited.
1. I have continued to meditate for an hour a day.
2. There is this entirely new feeling creeping into my core, a hope that is not parasite to some host expectation.
3. I could really, immensely, use a massage.
4. Mike M. is one of the most articulate and fiercely intellingent people that I have ever encountered in my life.
5. I am consistently amazed by Pat's dogged determination to look out for me.
6. When people tell me to "have a blessed day," it makes my skin crawl.
7. I used to use relationships as a means to seek self-validation and approval.
8. The Radiohead concert I went to two summers ago was the most visceral experience I have ever had listening to music. Even more so than listening to even radiohead through pat's fancy headphones while stoned.
9. I believe that human beings are, at their core, good, and that rejection / fear / hardships cause them to lose sight of this goodness.
10. The greatest compliment that I've ever received came from Anne, after we watched Bowling for Columbine with Lee and Evelyn, and she told me that she thought I was well-spoken and acutely intelligent.
11. These are qualities that I have a hard time ascribing to myself.
12. I ocassionally feel guilt over the way that I ended my friendship with Jenny B.
13. I started writing a book about a robot colony on earth, and am determined to finish it within the next year.
14. I want to make one of those christmas count down chains for the 300 some odd days until I can sit my first vipassana course.
15. I am looking forward to the day that I build independent, happy memories in Olympia. When it isn't tied to stagnation.
16. I hope with all of my body and soul that libby gets my old job.
17. I have this silly 12 year old girl notion that horses are magical creatures.
18. I am convinced that monkeys and dolphins are evil and have secret societies, like the Masons.
19. When I worked with Carlos in SGS I was convinced that the illuminati was real. Too many early morning shifts with that crazy guy, mang.
20. I secretly wish that Manny were my brother.
21. I have never been in a physical fight, and am not sure if I could be provoked to the level of anger that it would require to engage in one.
22. Although when I think about it, if anyone threatened anne or libby or aimee or patrick, I would go to town with my crowbar.
23. I immediately dicount the intellect of people who believe strongly in horoscopes and zodiac. I realize that this is mean to do, but the realization doesn't stop me. Parallax over the past thousand years has caused the stars to be in different positions than they were (calendar-wise) when astrology was created. So the signs aren't actually in accord with the physical placements of the stars at the times they're supposed to be anymore.
24. Though Mike D. is still my hero despite his constant reminders that he's a scorpio.
25. I usually listen more than I speak.
26. In social situations I generally feel like I'm outside of my body, watching things as they occur. Like I'm behind a camera lense. Though like Anne I've been known to front like I'm an extrovert.
27. I really actually do enjoy Zeke.
28. But the little kitty is the greatest thing ever invented. (There is no way that he is a natural creation.)
29. When I was a kid, Anne used to tell me that an evil leprechaun lived in the attic and would come down and do an evil dance when she was the only one in our room. I hope that this properly demonstrates the extent of the psychological torture that existed having Anne as a twin.
30. Har har har.
31. She really did make up that bit about the leprechaun, though.
32. And it absolutely scared the bejesus out of me.
33. There is a great deal of upheavel going on in my mind lately; it feels like some huge seismic shift, plates are being repositioned, one age is ending and the new one is attempting to take hold.
34. It excites me and I feel that something cathartic looms ahead.
35. I wish I could have sat the december course.
36. I can read bass clef and used to play the string bass and the trombone.
37. I started out college thinking that I would major in music education.
38. I think the major that I really ended up with would be aptly titled, "The Science of Critical Thought."
39. I have been strongly attracted (sexually) to two women in my life.
40. I didn't act on either of these attractions.
41. I haven't stopped thinking about the fact that one day Anne and I will be apart (in a final sense) since Ryan mentioned it.
42. I am so glad that he mentioned it. This is something that will cause my world to break. I can't be an ostrich forever.
43. Life is transitory. In-breath. Out-breath. That is the extent of the time we are allotted.
44. I read the mediations of marcus aurelius like i was a born-again baptist and it was my bible.
45. I haven't started my detox-from-the-wedding-diet yet because there is a wheel of brie in the fridge that has somehow figured out my name and keeps calling it.
46. I used to be a tough-guy (sweeper, mates!) on the soccer field.
47. I have all sorts of crazy schematics for a diesel van that I'm going to build under pat's guidance.
48. Instead of having a flame decal on the hood, it's going to have real flames.
49. I have the two greatest brother-in-laws ever.
50. I have vividly detailed dreams just about every night.
51. If dubya is re-elected (or rather, elected legitimately for the first time) I will give serious thought to moving to new zealand.
52. My father was a detective for a really long time. I think that observing him has helped me become a pretty good judge of character. Although my current boss is one of the most perplexingly unreadable people ever.
53. I have never been in any scrapes with the law.
54. Although three years ago I was on the Burmese (well, myanmar) government's watch list.
55. If I had a million dollars I would start a foundation that gave out emergency aid, no strings attached to folks in northeast ohio.
56. I shamelessly steal Beastie Boys lyrics whenever the opportunity presents itself in conversation.
57. Asanas daily so I'm very flexible.
58. I am ridiculously ticklish.
59. Despite my previous comment about astrology, I believe that there is magic in the night sky.
60. Autumn is my favorite of the seasons.
61. I never underestimate the depth of the people I encounter on a random day to day basis.
62. I believe that the average person has far more depth than they are willing or able to show.
63. Socialist Democracy is something that I had never counted as a viable political structure until I read Perestroika. Now it is the system that makes the most sense to me.
64. I am highly skeptical of the ability of a large body (ie, nation state) to properly carry out the tenents involved in socialist democracy.
65. It comes down to (and, I think, the ills of society in general) the propensity of direct responsibility to be diffused when there are several layers of administration and bureaucracy. The consumer saving $.25 on cucumbers doesn't think of their connection to the migrant worker getting paid a dollar a bushel to harvest them.
66. I often wish that I was like Ken Saro Wiwa and could get by on just three hours of sleep a night.
67. I played on a female football team for awhile in Olympia.
68. I don't know how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop, cause I could never hold out long enough to count.
69. I have been feeling incredibly placid of late, even while being belittled by Allen Q. the crazyman. This concerns me a little, but in a good way.
70. I have never been outside the land mass of the americas.
71. Caffeine has me in its grip, and I abide!
72. Sometimes while thinking of my ideals and opinions of what this country could be, I get frustrated with the mediocrity that we settle for and think, "well, let them have their WWF and Jerry Springer and acid rain, then. I will be behind my waterfall eating mangoes when Rome crumbles for the second time."
73. Most of the time this feels like a cop out.
74. Although I truely believe that any real and lasting change must be catalyzed at the individual level.
75. If you ever have need of my life, then come and take it.
76. I tend to be rather gullible. And I get extremely embarrassed and blush deeply upon realization that I've been duped.
77. Halloween is my favorite holiday. I almost always dress up as an amalgamation of a pirate, an elf, xena, and a viking.
78. It's 11 pm in Dublin. Do you know where your twin sister is?
79. I'm done with casually evolving relationships that are formed on the basis of two somewhat similar people meeting and both being single at the same time, a string of compromise and concession resulting in two shells of the former individuals abiding for the sake of not being alone. If I'm ever in a relationship again, it will be the result of a lengthy process of excoriation and unqualified interaction. Yeah.
80. My chrome is shining just like an icicle. You'll see me riding around town on my low-rider bicycle.
81. See?! I am powerless to stop.
82. I named my bike Sven. I tend to name inanimate objects. I also tend to create wild stories and backgrounds for these inanimate objects (and sometimes the animate ones, too, ie, little kitty.) eg: crookshanx.
83. I know what a pelantia is. (yeah anne, that one's for YOU, cochese.)
84. Translated, #83 means that I am, above all, a massive dork.
85. I have this idea that a person can't experience new thoughts unless they're open to them. IE, ideas and thoughts are out there circulating, but to be able to experience them, you must be on the proper... vibrational level to decode.
86. When it comes to quarries, I'm known to swim.
87. I strive daily to be as ridiculous and silly as Mike D.
88. I played in the graveyard a lot as a child. I don't think this has prepared me for death, or caused me to be morbid, I honestly don't understand the significance that people attach to graveyards. I think they are a tragic misallocation of land.
89. One day I will have the bust of V.I. Lenin on my desk. His ideals were noble, and bastardized by Stalin. This causes people to discount his philosophical significance and relevance, I think.
90. I think that I recently had a dream in which I was madly in love with M.C. A. Lately when I hear him rap my heart's all a-flutter.
91. Haha, that sounds so lame that I'm not erasing it.
92. I wish that boxer-briefs for women were widely available. Boxer-briefs are a great invention, up there with crowbars and flame.
93. When I build my house I'm going to have one closet that's devoted entirely to costumes and disguises.
94. Never downplay the significance of the difference between the transitory and the enduring.
95. That sentence was preposition soup.
96. I want to learn to snowboard.
97. Ya govaryou pah-rooskii.
98. I have dreams of crafting a robot that will beat box while doing "the robot".
99. My primary mode of transportation was a skateboard for a very short while.
100. If you want to battle, go internal.
2. There is this entirely new feeling creeping into my core, a hope that is not parasite to some host expectation.
3. I could really, immensely, use a massage.
4. Mike M. is one of the most articulate and fiercely intellingent people that I have ever encountered in my life.
5. I am consistently amazed by Pat's dogged determination to look out for me.
6. When people tell me to "have a blessed day," it makes my skin crawl.
7. I used to use relationships as a means to seek self-validation and approval.
8. The Radiohead concert I went to two summers ago was the most visceral experience I have ever had listening to music. Even more so than listening to even radiohead through pat's fancy headphones while stoned.
9. I believe that human beings are, at their core, good, and that rejection / fear / hardships cause them to lose sight of this goodness.
10. The greatest compliment that I've ever received came from Anne, after we watched Bowling for Columbine with Lee and Evelyn, and she told me that she thought I was well-spoken and acutely intelligent.
11. These are qualities that I have a hard time ascribing to myself.
12. I ocassionally feel guilt over the way that I ended my friendship with Jenny B.
13. I started writing a book about a robot colony on earth, and am determined to finish it within the next year.
14. I want to make one of those christmas count down chains for the 300 some odd days until I can sit my first vipassana course.
15. I am looking forward to the day that I build independent, happy memories in Olympia. When it isn't tied to stagnation.
16. I hope with all of my body and soul that libby gets my old job.
17. I have this silly 12 year old girl notion that horses are magical creatures.
18. I am convinced that monkeys and dolphins are evil and have secret societies, like the Masons.
19. When I worked with Carlos in SGS I was convinced that the illuminati was real. Too many early morning shifts with that crazy guy, mang.
20. I secretly wish that Manny were my brother.
21. I have never been in a physical fight, and am not sure if I could be provoked to the level of anger that it would require to engage in one.
22. Although when I think about it, if anyone threatened anne or libby or aimee or patrick, I would go to town with my crowbar.
23. I immediately dicount the intellect of people who believe strongly in horoscopes and zodiac. I realize that this is mean to do, but the realization doesn't stop me. Parallax over the past thousand years has caused the stars to be in different positions than they were (calendar-wise) when astrology was created. So the signs aren't actually in accord with the physical placements of the stars at the times they're supposed to be anymore.
24. Though Mike D. is still my hero despite his constant reminders that he's a scorpio.
25. I usually listen more than I speak.
26. In social situations I generally feel like I'm outside of my body, watching things as they occur. Like I'm behind a camera lense. Though like Anne I've been known to front like I'm an extrovert.
27. I really actually do enjoy Zeke.
28. But the little kitty is the greatest thing ever invented. (There is no way that he is a natural creation.)
29. When I was a kid, Anne used to tell me that an evil leprechaun lived in the attic and would come down and do an evil dance when she was the only one in our room. I hope that this properly demonstrates the extent of the psychological torture that existed having Anne as a twin.
30. Har har har.
31. She really did make up that bit about the leprechaun, though.
32. And it absolutely scared the bejesus out of me.
33. There is a great deal of upheavel going on in my mind lately; it feels like some huge seismic shift, plates are being repositioned, one age is ending and the new one is attempting to take hold.
34. It excites me and I feel that something cathartic looms ahead.
35. I wish I could have sat the december course.
36. I can read bass clef and used to play the string bass and the trombone.
37. I started out college thinking that I would major in music education.
38. I think the major that I really ended up with would be aptly titled, "The Science of Critical Thought."
39. I have been strongly attracted (sexually) to two women in my life.
40. I didn't act on either of these attractions.
41. I haven't stopped thinking about the fact that one day Anne and I will be apart (in a final sense) since Ryan mentioned it.
42. I am so glad that he mentioned it. This is something that will cause my world to break. I can't be an ostrich forever.
43. Life is transitory. In-breath. Out-breath. That is the extent of the time we are allotted.
44. I read the mediations of marcus aurelius like i was a born-again baptist and it was my bible.
45. I haven't started my detox-from-the-wedding-diet yet because there is a wheel of brie in the fridge that has somehow figured out my name and keeps calling it.
46. I used to be a tough-guy (sweeper, mates!) on the soccer field.
47. I have all sorts of crazy schematics for a diesel van that I'm going to build under pat's guidance.
48. Instead of having a flame decal on the hood, it's going to have real flames.
49. I have the two greatest brother-in-laws ever.
50. I have vividly detailed dreams just about every night.
51. If dubya is re-elected (or rather, elected legitimately for the first time) I will give serious thought to moving to new zealand.
52. My father was a detective for a really long time. I think that observing him has helped me become a pretty good judge of character. Although my current boss is one of the most perplexingly unreadable people ever.
53. I have never been in any scrapes with the law.
54. Although three years ago I was on the Burmese (well, myanmar) government's watch list.
55. If I had a million dollars I would start a foundation that gave out emergency aid, no strings attached to folks in northeast ohio.
56. I shamelessly steal Beastie Boys lyrics whenever the opportunity presents itself in conversation.
57. Asanas daily so I'm very flexible.
58. I am ridiculously ticklish.
59. Despite my previous comment about astrology, I believe that there is magic in the night sky.
60. Autumn is my favorite of the seasons.
61. I never underestimate the depth of the people I encounter on a random day to day basis.
62. I believe that the average person has far more depth than they are willing or able to show.
63. Socialist Democracy is something that I had never counted as a viable political structure until I read Perestroika. Now it is the system that makes the most sense to me.
64. I am highly skeptical of the ability of a large body (ie, nation state) to properly carry out the tenents involved in socialist democracy.
65. It comes down to (and, I think, the ills of society in general) the propensity of direct responsibility to be diffused when there are several layers of administration and bureaucracy. The consumer saving $.25 on cucumbers doesn't think of their connection to the migrant worker getting paid a dollar a bushel to harvest them.
66. I often wish that I was like Ken Saro Wiwa and could get by on just three hours of sleep a night.
67. I played on a female football team for awhile in Olympia.
68. I don't know how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop, cause I could never hold out long enough to count.
69. I have been feeling incredibly placid of late, even while being belittled by Allen Q. the crazyman. This concerns me a little, but in a good way.
70. I have never been outside the land mass of the americas.
71. Caffeine has me in its grip, and I abide!
72. Sometimes while thinking of my ideals and opinions of what this country could be, I get frustrated with the mediocrity that we settle for and think, "well, let them have their WWF and Jerry Springer and acid rain, then. I will be behind my waterfall eating mangoes when Rome crumbles for the second time."
73. Most of the time this feels like a cop out.
74. Although I truely believe that any real and lasting change must be catalyzed at the individual level.
75. If you ever have need of my life, then come and take it.
76. I tend to be rather gullible. And I get extremely embarrassed and blush deeply upon realization that I've been duped.
77. Halloween is my favorite holiday. I almost always dress up as an amalgamation of a pirate, an elf, xena, and a viking.
78. It's 11 pm in Dublin. Do you know where your twin sister is?
79. I'm done with casually evolving relationships that are formed on the basis of two somewhat similar people meeting and both being single at the same time, a string of compromise and concession resulting in two shells of the former individuals abiding for the sake of not being alone. If I'm ever in a relationship again, it will be the result of a lengthy process of excoriation and unqualified interaction. Yeah.
80. My chrome is shining just like an icicle. You'll see me riding around town on my low-rider bicycle.
81. See?! I am powerless to stop.
82. I named my bike Sven. I tend to name inanimate objects. I also tend to create wild stories and backgrounds for these inanimate objects (and sometimes the animate ones, too, ie, little kitty.) eg: crookshanx.
83. I know what a pelantia is. (yeah anne, that one's for YOU, cochese.)
84. Translated, #83 means that I am, above all, a massive dork.
85. I have this idea that a person can't experience new thoughts unless they're open to them. IE, ideas and thoughts are out there circulating, but to be able to experience them, you must be on the proper... vibrational level to decode.
86. When it comes to quarries, I'm known to swim.
87. I strive daily to be as ridiculous and silly as Mike D.
88. I played in the graveyard a lot as a child. I don't think this has prepared me for death, or caused me to be morbid, I honestly don't understand the significance that people attach to graveyards. I think they are a tragic misallocation of land.
89. One day I will have the bust of V.I. Lenin on my desk. His ideals were noble, and bastardized by Stalin. This causes people to discount his philosophical significance and relevance, I think.
90. I think that I recently had a dream in which I was madly in love with M.C. A. Lately when I hear him rap my heart's all a-flutter.
91. Haha, that sounds so lame that I'm not erasing it.
92. I wish that boxer-briefs for women were widely available. Boxer-briefs are a great invention, up there with crowbars and flame.
93. When I build my house I'm going to have one closet that's devoted entirely to costumes and disguises.
94. Never downplay the significance of the difference between the transitory and the enduring.
95. That sentence was preposition soup.
96. I want to learn to snowboard.
97. Ya govaryou pah-rooskii.
98. I have dreams of crafting a robot that will beat box while doing "the robot".
99. My primary mode of transportation was a skateboard for a very short while.
100. If you want to battle, go internal.
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