Some News.
Oberlin has a new firefighter.
AND IT'S ME!!!!
AND IT'S ME!!!!
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
The Only Road
There is something in the pit of my stomach, and I feel that it's growing. A burgeoning sense of time slipping away, a growing chasm that cuts like a knife, edgy and dull, gaping valley of my soul. There was still snow on the ground outside last year when we went to take the test together, I remember walking in and feeling that I had overdressed. By the time I got the letter back with the big number one on it, that valley had already started to suck the wind deep into it. I thought of all the faces in that room and felt this strange combination of pride and deep, deep longing. Like knowing that you're more than good enough for something and not being able to see any feasible way to get there.
There is a wolf-like resolve that is born from desperation. I haven't yet bared my fangs to that great big hollow going through my middle. I feel it, though. Don't know why I wait for other people's affirmations before taking action. It starts with small steps and by the end, hopefully, you're leaping.
There is a wolf-like resolve that is born from desperation. I haven't yet bared my fangs to that great big hollow going through my middle. I feel it, though. Don't know why I wait for other people's affirmations before taking action. It starts with small steps and by the end, hopefully, you're leaping.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Thinking Back
I can't believe I skipped the entire month of December.
December was a rush of chaos and change, I think most of my energies went into keeping my head above water. January is a horizon of new beginnings that a year ago I would have never thought possible. Anne is done with the academy. Ryan's leaving for India in five days! Anne and I just bought the greatest house in Oberlin. I took my first fire test and I could be getting my own personal turn-out gear soon! Nothing happens to you in life that you don't first believe you're ready for.
These are the lessons that I took from 2007:
Ask for positive change, usher it in with every fiber of your being, and change will come.
Your body will do anything that your mind has decided it can do.
The love and support of family is more important than most things in life.
There will always be enough money. Worry about the good works you're doing instead.
Here's to hoping that 2008 will be another record breaker.
December was a rush of chaos and change, I think most of my energies went into keeping my head above water. January is a horizon of new beginnings that a year ago I would have never thought possible. Anne is done with the academy. Ryan's leaving for India in five days! Anne and I just bought the greatest house in Oberlin. I took my first fire test and I could be getting my own personal turn-out gear soon! Nothing happens to you in life that you don't first believe you're ready for.
These are the lessons that I took from 2007:
Ask for positive change, usher it in with every fiber of your being, and change will come.
Your body will do anything that your mind has decided it can do.
The love and support of family is more important than most things in life.
There will always be enough money. Worry about the good works you're doing instead.
Here's to hoping that 2008 will be another record breaker.
