If You Read This,
Know that it's intended specifically for you.
"A man's worth is no greater than his ambitions."
What are your ambitions? What is the reason for you continual demanding, picking, poking? I can't wrap my brain around how, a month ago, you were so ready to patch things up and all "you are the most important thing to me" and now somehow you have a stick up your ass about a fucking phone line that you are not even paying for. Listen: I am incredibly angry, and the language may not be appropriate, but these are legitimate questions you must ask yourself. How would you choose to be remembered? Are your actions guided by what you truly deem to be right, or by some sense of needing to have the last word, needing to exercise power and control, needing to have some degree of involvement in a life that you abandoned on July 3, 2007? YOU are the one who got on the plane. She is going through the most stressful thing that she has ever gone through. You will stop adding stress to her life. You will wait to contact her about the divorce, your feelings, money until after she's done with the academy. You will do this because it's the way that honorable people who love each other treat each other. If you choose not to do these things you are far more ignominious than I could have imagined and I will hunt you.
Let me make this one point clear: in Oberlin, everyone born with the last name Jindra wants to see you bleed. You are not safe here; I would not linger. Go to Pittsburgh Friday afternoon and don't come back. It's really the best thing.
Examine your actions and figure out what your main priorities are. You said you wanted to remain friends. Are your actions really in line with that goal? Remove yourself from the overwhelming emotion you feel, if you are capable of doing that. In five years' time will you look back and think this situation was handled with honor? In a way befitting someone who sincerely felt love in their heart, and wanted to remain friends?
We do not get more than one shot at this. Every day in every way you make yourself, you make the world. Do not contact her unless you want to say hi and give a word of support for getting through the academy. Do not try to see her this weekend; leave Friday afternoon and don't return.
"A man's worth is no greater than his ambitions."
What are your ambitions? What is the reason for you continual demanding, picking, poking? I can't wrap my brain around how, a month ago, you were so ready to patch things up and all "you are the most important thing to me" and now somehow you have a stick up your ass about a fucking phone line that you are not even paying for. Listen: I am incredibly angry, and the language may not be appropriate, but these are legitimate questions you must ask yourself. How would you choose to be remembered? Are your actions guided by what you truly deem to be right, or by some sense of needing to have the last word, needing to exercise power and control, needing to have some degree of involvement in a life that you abandoned on July 3, 2007? YOU are the one who got on the plane. She is going through the most stressful thing that she has ever gone through. You will stop adding stress to her life. You will wait to contact her about the divorce, your feelings, money until after she's done with the academy. You will do this because it's the way that honorable people who love each other treat each other. If you choose not to do these things you are far more ignominious than I could have imagined and I will hunt you.
Let me make this one point clear: in Oberlin, everyone born with the last name Jindra wants to see you bleed. You are not safe here; I would not linger. Go to Pittsburgh Friday afternoon and don't come back. It's really the best thing.
Examine your actions and figure out what your main priorities are. You said you wanted to remain friends. Are your actions really in line with that goal? Remove yourself from the overwhelming emotion you feel, if you are capable of doing that. In five years' time will you look back and think this situation was handled with honor? In a way befitting someone who sincerely felt love in their heart, and wanted to remain friends?
We do not get more than one shot at this. Every day in every way you make yourself, you make the world. Do not contact her unless you want to say hi and give a word of support for getting through the academy. Do not try to see her this weekend; leave Friday afternoon and don't return.
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